It is time once again for my birthday. I can't believe it is almost here. I will be 26 this year, and somehow I kind of don't feel like celebrating. I look at all the great things that friends have going on in their lives, and I'm kind of envious of the fact that some of them are married, have children, and have all these great things going on in their lives.I had thought when I was a teenager that some of those wonderful things would have happened by now, but it just looks to be not happening anytime soon for me, and for right now, that is okay. I feel like I'm at a stand-still in life, and really trying to figure out where I'm suppose to go from here. I sometimes wonder how I have made it to this point in my life and how some things have not worked out the way that I thought they would. I have some many things on my mind, and somehow I can't seem to make them happen. I sometimes wonder when great things are going to happen, and I sometimes if they are just going to pass me by. I continue to look at things, and sometimes wonder if I'm going to be along for long time(with no dating prospects on the horizon), as I wonder how I can become a better person and wonder if there is a way that I can change things. Sometimes I wish that things would just change for the better, so that maybe the world doesn't look so gloomy and such a bad place. Why can't things work out the way that we would like, for just once? Does the world have a problem with us being happy? I know that people think I'm happy a lot of time, but there are things that are constantly on my mind, and I wonder how people are able to be truly happy all of the time. How do we change things if we aren't happy with them? How do we make sure that even those that we love or that are family just encourage us, and want us to be happy instead of always being down about things?
How do we know that certain things are going to happen and that we can truly be happy by our own standards? Why do we feel that we have to live up to everybody's ideas and what they feel that we should be doing?
Hopefully this year will be better and things will go more smoothly, with some great adventures. I really do hope that as I continue to get older, I can look back on some bad years and know that something great came from them, and that maybe instead of remembering all the bad things, I can look back and remember some of the good things.
On to bigger and better things
